You would think with spring approaching, flowers blooming, patios opening, etc that this would be the time that I would love to be in New York more than ever. But for some odd reason I am crazy homesick. I just realized that I haven't left a two-mile radius in over 4 months. Yeah, yeah, "New York has more to offer on one street block than..." blah blah blah. But what about wide open spaces? What about looking out your window and not being able to see into the homes of at least 40 other people? What about being able to go home after a long day and not rub elbows with 100+ strangers? I need to break out of this city like I have never needed to before. I need to literally - elbows jabbing - bust out of this place before I go totally mad. I want to be back where the smell of fresh cut grass in the norm, as opposed to delivery tuck exhaust. Where my ride or walk home from an errand run in silent and not filled with the shouts of the coke-head preacher on the subway screaming that I haven't let Jesus in. Even just the absence of all of those eyes. Just dotting around, reading subway posters, books, watching iPod videos, playing cell phone games, staring, crying, watching.
I was walking home today feeling down about the day when I stopped at the light to wait for it to change. There was a white minivan with two Hasidic Jews screaming at each other in Yiddish. They were screaming at each other so loud that they didn't even notice the light change. I start walking across the street and that is just when they realized they had a green light. I yelled at them, they yelled back in Yiddish and I wished the day was over. So I went home, took a hot shower, ordered a pizza and watched two episodes of The Biggest Loser. (You know you have been away too long when you are shocked when the pizza delivery boy shows up in a car and not on a bike.)
No worries friends. I will be home in one week. To sweet home Wisconsin where the grass is cut fresh, backyards exist and tap beer is $2. Oh, and I also can't wait to break out of this two mile radius. You're freaking me out, New York.